First let me start off by saying that i do not always feel down and depressed that just happens to be when i need to write in my blog so you people must ignore my rants and anger among other things lol!! Tanky Tanky!

 For once i really don't know what to say. I am so full of anger and rage i just can not take it anymore.It is slowly consuming me. I sit day in and day out with people not really knowing much of anything that i feel or do and Its that way because i choose for it to be. People think i am sunny and happy go lucky lol i have been called (bubbly) on more then one occasion.But at this very moment i am just Angry. Do you guys know what i mean? Like you can not pinpoint one reason or thing that occured in your day or someone or something that caused this anger but it serges through you just wanting to pour out and it takes every ounce of you just to hold it in. And deal with another long happy go lucky day smileing at everyone and checking on everyone and making sure everyone is happy and feel good and you wouldn't dare want to bring someones day down with your silly small problems.And people think they know you they think they are so close to you its everyone your friends, your family,boyfriends,girlfriends......Its somewhat like lieing a lie day in and day out.The anger is just to much to take sometimes i can barely breath my chest gets tight I feel serious pressure on my back Its a very odd feeling and most the time could not even begin to tell you what causes this.I am sure some of you know what i am talking about and some of you will think i am just plane crazy lol which is fair enough as well because between me and you guys i am aweebit wacky lol Shh ;) Well i am a wee bit to angry to type anymore at the moment thankx for listening guys!

 Alright lets see Many people think that if you do not tell the whole truth that it is not a lie. Well where is the line that can not be crossed? What is a lie and what is decieving? And what is protecting the person that you care for? And honestly how honest should you be with one person? What should you keep to yourself and what must be known by the one you love? Is their such a thing as being TO honest?And whats the point in the relationship where the person must know everything?Every thought every feeling every emotion. And how truly healthy is that? And if your not totally honest with people does that make you a bad person or a good person for sacrificeing dealing with the guilt to truly protect someone? What someone doesn't know won't hurt them....How true is the meaning to that quote?

 Hmm lets see.....Can you guys answer a question for me.....What is love? L O V E a 4 letter word that can change your life for better or worse for that matter. How does one know if they are inlove or lust or yern for campaionship for that matter. Emotion is the most dangerious drug if you truly think about it.Its more addicting then anything else...Sometimes you can't eat can't sleep lose your whole world over it and you just can't help it can you. Thats the worse part of it all you have no control over your own life when you think about it do ya? And if you did would you control it? Or would you let yourself fall? I suppose thats why we do not have the power to control out own lives.

  lol Yes Yes i am gonna keep going :P........They say relationships are give and take.Well when do you reach the point that you give to much of yourself? When does the art of comprimise become comprimiseing? And how much of yourself are you ment to give? Every ounce every yern every inch EVERYTHING. I mean we are suppose to give 110% in everything we do but does that also mean relationships? And if you give all of you and it does not work out then when you come out of it What will you have left? So i suppose the question with no answer is how much should you truly give to someone? When is enough too much?

  Do you ever wonder why people do the things they do?I mean really what makes people tick Why do we get lied to?Cheated on? Why do people disrespect each other for no reason at all? And why do we always end up hurting the people we love the most the worse? Is it really and truly in human nature to distroy our own lives?I mean to me seems like when things are going best for people they feel the need to mess it up.I may be wrong about all this but thus far that is the way everything really and truly seems.

 Lets see a wee bit of personal information...I lost a cousin and a aunt and uncle Thanksgiving day and no i dont mean "lost" I mean as in never will speak of or to them again....Honestly i have never met a more coward of a person then my cousin Thats very sad. I wont bore you all with the stupid boreing details i just had to say how much of a sorry pathetic coward my very own cousin is. It just shows what things have come to in this world when the place you call "home" dont really exsist anymore.And the people you call "family" Will turn on you at the drop of a dime literally.

 Ok lets see what else.....I am talking to my exfiance which for the record talking to a ex is quite a mistake lol...We have been over for about 4 months. The first 3 were super easy I spent my time being filled with anger but now it is going away and missing him is settleing in. And i have never felt so stupid for missing someone ever lol dont cha just hate that! Yes we were together for over 3 and a half years everyone says its natural to miss him well i do not likely care what is natural LOL i just want it to stop!

 Alrighty i belive that is all for the moment.Wooo i feel abit better how about you guys? lol :D

 So Hm i am new to this whole blog thing...Yes this is indeed my first time :O.....So Lets just throw abit of randomness into everyones day...So Today is thanksgiving indeed My first thanksgiving with out my Fiance Well ermm Ex Hmm Isn't it ashame how much impact one person can have on someones life. But today is not a day of thinking of past times today is a day of giving thanks for everything that we are thankful for. Is it so bad if you can not think of something to be thankful for? Does that make you a bad person? And really and truly who is to say what makes one a bad person? The liars? The cheaters? The druggies?The workaholics?Dead beat dads? Bad boyfriends/girlfriends. I mean in this world today what actually is bad?Ahh Yes truly no one knows it is in the eyes of the beholder i do belive......Hey i like this whole blog thingy mwahahah! lol I can just blab and blab and if i bore you people then you can just close the window thingy! I enjoy this.

 Lets see...What else to blab about... I do not mean to be a downer on thanksgiving I hope all of you are having a wonderful thanksgiving! :D See i am a very happy go lucky person! WooHoo! :D......Oh yes i would like to Thank DrewNess for getting me started on the whole blog thing this is indeed fun lol What better to be doing on your Thanksgiving then ranting to a bunch of strangers.

Well everyone have a wonderful thanksgiving and take care!